When life hands you lemons, slash them with limes

Yeah, so, this is what I did with the first hour or so of my workday. I WAS EXCITED, OKAY? I'm not sure the first one counts as a coda? But I amused myself with it, so /o\ Now I need to go take a nap and try and sleep off my joy hangover.

( So an angel walks into a bar... (stop me if you've heard this one) )

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( And checking in with Team Codependence... )

So, I will probably be able to arrange my thoughts into some sort of coherent something or other at some point. We have not yet reached that point, so I bring you a poll instead. Like a discussion, but with less effort! These are just a few of the more important points of the episode and I'm curious as to where everyone stands. For science and stuff!

( Inquiring Minds and all that )

I woke up at 7:15 this morning. Yeah, that's more like it. *sighs*

I've been thinking about doing this since 5x01 aired because I remember that not everyone interacts with their media in the same way and I am a firm believer that one is responsible for one's own fannish bliss. So this is a statement of where my fannish bliss comes from (a.k.a. self-indulgent wankery, it's what the internet is for, right?). Let me say this again in a separate paragraph:

This is about my personal feelings wrt Supernatural and how I interact with it on a fannish level.

So, ( here's what you can expect from me this season )

In other news, I had a dream last night that I was talking to my cousin and she told me that Misha had done some sort of guest speaker thing at her kids' elementary school. My first thought to this was, "Of course Misha would be good with kids!" My second was, "Wait, he didn't say anything inappropriate, did he?"

Oh, brain. You do amuse me!

Here's the drabble I did at work today:

The day Castiel meets Dean, he feels doubt for the first time. It's Dean's despair at the thought that God might actually exist that cuts through him. For most people, it is comfort. For Dean, it throws everything he knows into question, that God would let people suffer so, that God would want Dean out of hell.

His doubt triggers Castiel's, sharp and unexpected.

But it's not Dean's doubt that breaks him. After that, he fortified himself against it. It is the moment he realizes Dean trusted him. Castiel never had any hope of defending himself against Dean Winchester's faith.

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Which led to my musings about why I want to, but can't quite hop fully onboard the Dean/Castiel ship. (Which is not to say I'm opposed to it. I fully acknowledge that these are my own issues and I'm certainly not trying to derail anyone else's enjoyment of the ship. Cool?) ( Cut for my rambling reservations and general character thoughts. This is as close to meta as I get... )

Today what I am doing is rewatching S2 of Supernatural. (Oh, Dean!) And waiting for my coworker to email me and tell me she's finished S4 so that we can spazz like spazzy spazzy fangirls.

In the meantime, it's interesting watching the show thorough the lens of S4. I'm really quite impressed at how consistent the earlier seasons are with the current mythology of the show. And now what I kind of want to do is go back and write a bunch of stories from Castiel's perspective. Like, Castiel has always been watching Dean.

Not really paying attention to who Dean is as a person, just making sure that everything happens as it is prophesied. He is standing on the stage with Rev. Roy Le Grange when he "heals" Dean. He is the one who influenced Rev. Le Grange to choose him. Castiel is the one who told him that God has a plan for Dean Winchester.

Castiel has read all the writings by the prophet. Doesn't know what the ultimate plan is yet. Doesn't know that in a couple of years, he will pull Dean out of Hell. All he has been told is that Dean has a higher purpose, and he is the one who needs to make sure that Dean continues down the right path.

It is only after Castiel is actually stationed on earth, starts talking to his charge that he really thinks about the past few decades that he has been acting as the man's guardian. And, the thing is, Castiel knows Dean. Knows everything about him. It's his job, after all. But when he thinks back on everything that has happened to shape the man and starts to care, Castiel knows he's in trouble.

Something along those lines, anyway. Instead? I may or may not be writing, um, this? IDK. There is a reason it's called crackfic? And Kassiepants is totally my dealer.

Here is a "The Rapture" Coda!

( Dean thinks that Castiel can read his mind, and Castiel doesn't feel the need to correct him on this. )