When life hands you lemons, slash them with limes

It's like 3 degrees outside. My nose is really really cold right now. I'm warming it with the heating pad. MY LIFE!



Because I've had it stuck in my head (AND SO NOW SHALL YOU!!) Also, TINY TOONS!!!

I am tired, internets. I don't want to pack anymore!! I woke up at like 3 a.m. last night worrying about my to-do list. UNACCEPTABLE. Today I crossed off "worry about work bs" because I am done with it. The woman I'm training is far and away the most obnoxious, passive-aggressive, wanky, shit-stirring troll I've ever met IRL. Every time she talks to me, I think, "Bitch, please. I'm in fandom. I will not rise to your wank-bait."

She drives me up a wall, but I think I've reached a new level of Zen about it: What she doesn't learn in the time I have to teach her, she'll have to figure out on her own. Over-Developed Sense of Responsibility is trumped by Not My Fucking Problem Anymore.

In the meantime, I am focusing on my Happy Thoughts!

Things That Make Me Happy:

This Vid:



It is seriously one of my favorite vids ever! ♥ I actually downloaded the song and put it on my ipod this weekend, so I've been listening to it on my commute. This makes me happy because it makes me think of a) The first wincon, b) Sam's stupid* face and how much I love it, and c) How much Dean loves Sam's stupid face.

Which brings me to my next Happy Thing:

SAMANDDEANSAMANDDEANSAMANDDEAN!!! \o/ ♥

Ummmm, I've mentioned I'm doing a series rewatch, y? Funny story, when I came back to fandom, I was all, "Oh, I don't ship Sam/Dean anymore. Doop di doop." Who was I kidding? I've never shipped anything so hard as I ship Sam/Dean. Though, they do totally fit in with my previous ships in what appeals to me (Xena/Ares, Duncan/Methos, Clark/Lex).

It's not a love/hate thing, you see. It's more of a "Intense emotional bond and unrealistic expectations for each other that nobody can live up to and when the other person inevitably lets you down you want to walk away but who the fuck are you kidding? There's no way you can ever actually walk away from them, so where does that leave you?" sort of thing. (Guess when I stopped watching SV – ha!) Please note: this is not something I would look for in RL relationships, but in fiction it works for me hard.

Anyway, Sam and Dean push every single button I have wrt this dynamic. I can't quit them! They are my OTP to end all OTPs!

In that vein, if I could vid, I would totally make a Sam/Dean vid to Lifehouse's Sick Cycle Carousel**. More specifically, I would make a Sam POV vid that goes through Swan's Song about all the questionable choices he's made in his love for Dean (lots of clips of the various times Dean's died, Lucifer!Sam, Sam exorcising demons, etc). I have this whole ~*~vision~*~ of it in my head. SHARE MY VISION, INTERNETS! Lyrics under the cut for anyone who cares.

( If shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine )

Mostly I like the idea because I think fandom tends to forget that the crazy-intense soulmate erotic co-dependent love cuts both ways and that Sam is as effed up over Dean as Dean is over Sam. Hi, I could write you an essay on Sam's love for Dean! Go ahead, ask me my thoughts on yaoi!

This is what I think of to keep from thinking of all the things that are stressing me out. As a coping mechanism, it doesn't suck.

For my next procrastination post, I will be answering five things meme questions. Ask me things! I have a lot of procrastinating to do in the coming weeks!

* By "stupid" I mean "ridiculously adorable", of course.

** This is the other song that I downloaded this weekend that I can't stop listening to. It's just so AWESOME and PERFECT and THEM!! I am very easy to please sometimes.

HI INTERNETS!!!! \o/ I am drunk! Yay Happy Hour! But that is not the important things I have to share.

I have already mentioned this to some, but I have been absent of late because I am moving at the end of September. This means I have exactly a month to clean and pack ALL OF THE THINGS like a MOTHERFUCKNG ADULT! Ummm, so that's what I'll be doing between now and then. But I will be back! I do not want to quit the internets like I did last time. That was sad.

:( <-- Me quitting the internets

In order to motivate myself, I'm doing a SPN series rewatch as I pack. OMG BABY SAMANDDEAN I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!! ♥ How do they make me so giddy still? I love them SFM! I may have teared up a little during the first COMWS vid. I suppose you all are spared my waxing poetic about my love for them by the fact that I have RL srs bznz stuff to do. *SIGH*

Hey, so the point in all that was that I'm behind on answering fb and comments and life and I am a lurking lurker who lurks right now, but I will be back and try and catch up as much as possible once I get relocated (mid-October projection, I'm guessing? For getting settled and all?)

ANYWHODDLE, what I did manage to do was set up my fic community for those interested in following my stories there. It is here --> storiesimakeup. I need to, like, put up a profile and stuff. FAQs, maybe? IDK. The short version is this:

* I put up almost every completed SPN fic I've posted here or under my old lj*.

* I did NOT post my WiPs there, which means the Misha is Crazy stories aren't over there - I plan on finishing that SOMEDAY, and I'm all OCD and didn't want to post anything incomplete over there.

* I am NOT locking down any of my fic that's been posted here, and I WILL post links here when I post stories there, so it's not necessary to watch both. The whole comm thing just really really appeals to my OCD tendencies. Everything is as neatly tagged and similarly formatted as I could manage, and I have everything marked with its original posting date, so it's all chronological.

* Ummmm, that's all I can think of for now. I did all the formatting and posting over a few days, and I think I checked everything, but I can't 100% guarantee there aren't any formatting errors there.

Okay, I'm going to go do some drunken packing now. FUN TIMES!

* I went back and forth on whether or not to post my old stuff. It's not bad, nor are they the most brilliant stories ever. But a lot of them at this point are a little cliched. But they weren't when I wrote them! Not so terribly much, anyway. In the end, my OCD completionist self won out. That I'm ridiculous comes as a shock to nobody at this point, y/y?

I have confessions to make-- I LOVE getting something back from beta. I love Love LOVE when betas make note of things they like in a fic. I don't know if it's a writer thing or an Aries thing, but it totally makes me happy and excited about my story again, generally when I need it the most (during edits).

It is entirely possible that, when looking up a minor thing for my story earlier, I lost about half an hour listening to some of Budweiser's old Real Men of Genius commercials. I can't help it! Those things CRACK ME UP!!



And this one, which actually made me snort. And this one. All of which made me think of rhythmsextion's big bang (which is AWESOME) in a tangential sort of way.

And then there's this one:



Ummmm, yeah. Okay, I'll stop now. Back to work with me!

Right, so one of my resolutions (for lack of a better term) was to be better about answering my comments and leaving more comments in other people's posts (as opposed to leaving the tab open until the urge passes)*. My intention for this weekend was to go through and clean out my LJ inbox and catch up because I feel like a jerkface for letting it go.

What happened, however...

Well, okay. So I slept until 1:30 on Saturday (which has to do with me staying up way too late Wednesday night finishing work stuff and never catching up) and I had crazy ass dreams. This is really neither here nor there, but that's always fun. ANYWAY, when I got up it was FAR TOO COLD in the house to leave the comfort of my blanket-nest in my bed. Which, fine! I haz my computer, I can do stuffs from my bed.

Then, whilst I was making coffee and breakfast, my roommate emerged from her blanket nest and was all, "Do you want me to put the first few episodes of 30 Rock on my external hd for you to watch?" like a sneaky crack-dealer!

I was all, "Um, sure." Because I'd never watched it and I didn't know. I DIDN'T KNOW, YOU GUYS!!

Cut to me spending the ENTIRE WEEKEND in bed watching 30 Rock and IMing my roommate because we are JUST THAT LAME. (Got through Seasons one and two).

In our defense, it was cold and our house is unheatable when the temperature dips to the teens for a week. The bedrooms were the only inhabitable rooms in the house.

Actually, we did venture out yesterday for sushi but were thwarted by our favorite hole-in-the-wall sushi place being closed. LAME! Then we were all petulant because we had our hearts set on sushi and nothing else sounded good. We ended up at Panera Bread, because one really has a limited choice in TN on a Sunday.

We did go to the fabric store and I found a polar fleece blanket kit (the kind where you cut fringes and tie them together) of KERMIT THE FROG! ON SALE!! So, y'know, obviously I got that. It was very exciting.

Then we went back home to our respective bedrooms and watched 30 Rock and IM'd for the rest of the night.

So as far as productivity goes, I kind of failed in an epic manner this weekend. I had lots of LOLz, though, so that counts for something, right?

I'll totally catch up next weekend, ffs. Cross my heart.

*I do not have any internet access at work whatsoever, thus all my fannish activities must be done when I get home. As the typical work day leaves me mostly blarg and drained, I generally save the stuff I want/need to do for the weekend.