So much porn, so little time...

[errant_jane]

I am torn, friends. I spent an entirely delightful afternoon reading this fic and, yeah. *happy sigh*

Now I must decide what to do next.

Do I do workstuffs and set this bitch up? (Yeah, two replies is totally enough for me! OMFG YOU GUYS I REQUIRE SO LITTLE ENCOURAGEMENT IT'S EMBARRASSING!!)

Do I try and write more? (the problem with this is all of the people that I subject to my writing process normally audience for me are NOT ON THE CHATS!!)

Do I work my way through this rec list and just glut myself on Dean/Castiel fic?

Do I just sit here and spastically refresh the internets and hop they provide me with something more amusing? I JUST DON'T KNOW!!!

In other news, am I the only one who thinks that Wonderwall is the quintessetial Dean/Castiel song? I mean, c'mon:

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do

I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Yeah, okay. I got nothing.

Comments

[rhiannonhero.livejournal.com]

Hmm, right about now, I'm pretty sure that "Wonderwall" is about Christian and Oliver. *giggle*

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

*laughs* Oh, Rhi!!! I wish you watched Supernatural so much!!! I mean, I know you have a valid reason and all.

But! Here, watch this clip (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1lyqiXEGts&feature=related). Castiel = Angel of the Lord. THEY ARE SO SLASHY!!!

[rhiannonhero.livejournal.com]

Hmm, I watched it. I suspect that it is a lot more powerful in context of the series as a whole. I do wish I could watch it. I'm just way too easily frightened. I mean, the episode "Hush" on Buffy made it hard for me to sleep!

ETA: Is Dean's voice supposed to sound like that for a particular reason, or has the actor's voice changed in the last few years? I didn't remember it sounding so hoarse.

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

Yeah, probably much better in context. It's from the season finale and it was just so so so intense and GUH! Like, think S1 SV slashiness in the context of a well-written show.

I know, I am sympathetic to easily frightened. I just wish you could share in this joy!! Plus, Misha Collins is kind of a fandom in and of himself.

In this particular scene, Dean's voice is all low and hoarse with manfully contained emotions. It is normally not quite that rough.

[rhiannonhero.livejournal.com]

So, is the fandom consensus that Castiel has a penis and asshole for the sexin'? Because I thought the general opinion of Angels were that they were sexless beings for the most part? Can Castiel morph his body to accommodate Dean's needs and desires? Or does he just provide oral services? Tell me more.

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

Well, Castiel is actually inhabiting the mortal body of a devout man. So, yeah, he has all of the necessary equipment. I haven't actually read a bunch of fic yet, because I just started writing so, I do have some things I am unsure of.

The thing is, on the show, Castiel is clearly very in love with Dean. Okay, ymmv on the in love part, but basically in that clip, Castiel chooses helping Dean over heaven's plans, so, yeah. Canon-wise, he's pretty heavily invested in Dean's happiness for someone who is not supposed to feel anything.

So, I guess my issue is, yeah, he is totally in love with Dean, but he is an angel and its so epic and big that I think porny fic has to be done with a very deft hand. Castiel isn't disobeying heaven because Dean's pretty, y'know?

And Dean. Dean has been chosen by heaven (he was in hell at the end of last season and Castiel rescued him from hell at the beginning of this season and Dean has a brand of Castiel's hand print on his shoulder!!!) and he has all of these issues about not being worthy and why would God have chosen him and he is so lovely and angsty and *flaps*!!!

*coughs* Sorry. I just love them so much. They do things to me!!

[rhiannonhero.livejournal.com]

Ooooh, that does sound wonderfully epic. I like the brand of Castiel's hand. That's a very nice touch. TPTB of that show clearly love fangirls!!! :D

So, back to the sex, when you say a deft hand, are you saying that the basis for the sex would absolutely have to be love and not lust?

And how does Dean feel about Castiel?

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

Yes! He pulled him from hell and left his mark!!! TPTB love us in a very real way. It's actually somewhat absurd. I was telling a friend that SPN is like the refugee show for battered Buffy, Angel, and SV fans. All, "Shhh, it will be okay. Look at what we have made for you, fangirls!!"

Hmmm. It is complicated, because I think at this point Castiel is absolutely devoted to Dean, but Sam is top top #1 in Dean's heart (not even saying this from a Wincest perspective. Just, y'know, wholly who Dean is. He is Sam's big brother and his life is about protecting Sam.)

Castiel is utterly alien in a lot of ways, and Dean absolutely does not trust Team Heaven. But he really wants to trust Castiel (imo) and cares about him more than he wants to admit to himself.

In one of the last episodes of the season, Castiel gets yanked out of his vessel and back to Heaven for a smackdown because he starts caring for Dean too much (canon!). When he gets back in his vessel, he basically tricks Dean into giving his allegiance to the angels. Hence their break-up in the clip.

Their entire storyline has gone through a pretty classic romance arc, actually.

But, yeah. There are some pretty heavy issues wrt dirty porn fic, such as their serious trust issues. Because a relationship built on lies and deceit is doomed to fail!! This is not to mention that there's still another soul bouncing around in the (very pretty!) body Castiel is inhabiting. And also the impending Apocalypse.

[rhiannonhero.livejournal.com]

Yes, the consent issues alone in that situation sound very sketchy.

I'm seriously sitting here kind of cracking up because the difference between our current fandom obsessions is like...hilarious. Like totally hilarious.

I mean, you're like, "Apocalyptic angst, Rhi!!!! Don't ya want it????" And I'm like, "Happy canonical gleeful joyful pretty boy sex!!! Apocalyptic angst, um, what??"

LOL! :D

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

Sketchy, but not completely unworkable. Castiel can, for example, visit Dean in his dreams (canon!!! they love us so much!!!)

Right? It is making me laugh so hard!!! Oh, us!!

[nightswhisper.livejournal.com]

yea, um, that song most certainly works. *nodnodnod*

And, uh..I DUNNO! That rec list has a looootta good authors. But yer story was so good! ;.;

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

Right? I actually have it on a S4 SPN mix that I made about halfway through the season, that I have been listening to non-stop because I'm such a nerd.

Awww! Thank you! The rec list is just so tempting! I've had it sitting in an open tab since it was posted.

[nightswhisper.livejournal.com]

OOO!O if your bored, have 80 mins, and haven't seen it you could watch shelter! *nodnodnod* could provide link...an adorable movie, it is. Friend showed it to me a couple weeks back. >.> Sawy. I be on a kick.

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

O.O Yes link plz!!! IDK that I'll actually watch it tonight, but the imdb sufficiently intrigued me!!

[nightswhisper.livejournal.com]

what IMDB neglects to tell you, is that the story is far more then just a cutesy glbt film. In fact, it almost seems secondary because the characters are that well fleshed out. And oh my GOD Cody. *hugs the ickle little thing*

http://www.megavideo.com/?v=WTTVAMS2

ennnnjoy!

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

\o/ Thank you!!!

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

Wtf, Wonderwall?

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

You disagree with my assessment?

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

No, just commenting on your bad taste in music.

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

WTFever, hater Fraggle. You have not a leg to stand on.

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

Dude. Dave. Matthews. Band.

There is no rejoinder.

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, what? IKD, Fallout Boy?

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

No. Fail.

I do not think FOB are GOOD. I think they're terrible. I enjoy that.

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

I didn't say you said they were good, I said you didn't have a leg to stand on! OH SNAP!

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

No, I reject your argument because thinking something is funny and laughing at it is NOT the same as thinking something is good. If you laughed at DMB, we could discuss similarities.

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

I reject your argument, because I very clearly recall more than one earnest FOB conversation with you back in the day. I also clearly recall some of the music you violated my ipod with.

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

I can't believe you're trying to base an argument on something I SAID, don't you know better by now?

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

AHAHAHAHAHA!!!! I do know better. Touche, Pants.

[qwertypoiuq.livejournal.com]

WRITE MOOOOAR. Tell me what I need to do to enable this and by gum, you shall be enabled! Also, I will now never be able to hear Wonderwall without thinking of Dean/Castiel, and I'm surprisingly okay with that, since I totally HATED the song before and was always peturbed when they started playing it at our campus parties. But now I shall go to my happy Dean/Castiel place and forget how much Oasis irritate me. Thank you for improving my life in this small but meaningful way.

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

ALAS! Writing will not happen until tomorrow!! But I will totally try to write another part tomorrow!!

*grins* Glad to help!! It is my secret mission to turn hated things into beacons of Dean/Castiel love, so *wins*

[shirozora.livejournal.com]

Dropping in on the way to reading your next RPS installment. That song's in my HD - got it from one of my fan mixes - but I haven't heard it yet. Still sorting through the other fan mixes I downloaded like crazy over the past three weeks.

Have you heard "Come Home" by OneRepublic? I started thinking "Sam & Dean, holy knuckleballs!" when I decided to play it for no real reason.

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

Ha! I have resisted the temptation to download the fanmixes. I made my own personal one for S4 and I've pretty much been listening to it non-stop.

I have not heard this song. But I'm a fan of songs that make you think of Sam & Dean on general principle.