Dad's on a hunting trip, and he hasn't been home in a few days...

[errant_jane]

Today is the five-year anniversary of the airing of SPN's pilot. HOW DID I NOT KNOW THIS? Clearly this is the reason I've been thinking about it all day (as opposed to me just being a nutjob fangirl). I intuited it, okay?

I just said this to estrella30 (as well as talking to Kassie about it this weekend) and I don't know that another fandom will ever live up to the standards set by SPN, especially in that first season.

I don't know that there's actually a way for me to talk about Show and what it (and fandom) means to me without sounding completely wacko. I love the show, I love the characters, I love the storytelling. From the very first I loved them (save for being pissed that Dean was now a Sam and Jason Teague was now Dean and it was all VERY CONFUSING. I got over that, obvs).

Aside from my very real love and emotional investment in the show, this fandom has been amazing in so many ways. I've made wonderful friends, both from my time in S1 and S2, as well as in this past year and a half. I'm so glad I came back. It's pretty safe to say that with all of the changes going on in my life right now, I would be kind of a mess if not for y'all. So thank you for that. ♥

And so, because I'm being crazy anyway, a letter!

Dear Show,

Wow, five years old! It seems like only yesterday that you were scaring the crap out of me for the first time and now look at you, all grown up (though no less pretty!).

Thank you for giving us your pretty, angsty boys and their matching issues baggage (the best part is when they cry!). Thank you for telling us your stories and poking fun at yourself, and being cool with us telling our stories. You are TOTALLY that parent that was all, "If you're going to drink, I'd rather you drink here so I know where you are" in high school. Thank you for bringing JDM into my life. Thank you for Misha and sucking me back in when I thought I'd quit fandom for good. Thank you for the J's and their epic bromance.

Thank you for Sam and Dean.

Thank you for the million and one things that are slipping my mind right now because all I can think is LOVE. Thank you for all of the people in my life because of your existence. I owe you more than words can convey for that one. Thank you for all the ups and downs and "OMG WHAT JUST HAPPENED?!? *SOBBITY*" (I'm looking at you, S1 cliffhanger).

Thank you for the roadside heart-to-hearts. Thank you for giving me a S6 to look forward to, because clearly my emotional stability rests on being able to watch my stories every week. I'm only half joking about that.

Thank you for the epic love story of Sam and Dean.

In short, show, ILU forever and I'm terribly glad you're in my life. Keep up the pretty work.

Loves and kisses forever and ever,
EJ

Yes, I am watching the pilot right now. Don't judge me.

Comments

[dr-ducktator.livejournal.com]

Your letter almost made my cry. Srsly. I'm totally emotionally involved in spn - like waaaay over my head involved. I'm glad there's someone out there like me. I revel in my insanity!

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

Hee! Glad I could help!! Yeah, I can't even bring myself to be embarrassed by my love at this point. It just makes me so ~happy~!! Embrace the crazy! The crazy is pretty. ;D

[aggybird.livejournal.com]

I can't even understand people who don't LOVE THIS SHOW. It's like... it's ALL-ENCOMPASSING. I can't believe that five years ago, I saw this show and saw its fandom and went, "EW I WANT NONE OF THAT." SOB THE MISTAKES WE MAKE IN OUR CALLOUS YOUTH.

I am so happy that Show has brought me a zillion awesome moments and people. And I am SO SO glad it sucked you back in, otherwise I might never have crossed your path and that would have been BEYOND TRAGIC.

[apetslife.livejournal.com]

JUDGE you? NEVER! I think I'll join you!

♥ ♥ ♥

[serialkarma.livejournal.com]

d'aww! All this love all over my flist is making me so happy for fandom!

Also, ha, this is making me remember how I tried...TRIED...to watch SPN in the first season and I made it about 6 episodes in before I decided that, despite Dean's hotness, and his awesome car and awesome music, the show was too reminiscent of the X-Files and I was still too bitter and hurty over that and couldn't deal with another one.

Ahahahahahahahahaha, oh life, you are so funny. (And also Misha)

[rhythmsextion]

THANK YOU SHOW FOR BRINGING HOLLY INTO MY LIFE. <3333 Ah, the power of incestuous gay love.

[mysticwaters.livejournal.com]

Cosigned, Me.

(save for being pissed that Dean was now a Sam and Jason Teague was now Dean and it was all VERY CONFUSING. I got over that, obvs)

I had to read that four times before I actually understood it, lmao!

[missyjack.livejournal.com]

WHAT SORT OF CRAZY FREAK ARE YOU. I mean who spends five years of their life being passionately obsessed with a TV show and travelling around the world to hang out with fellow cult members. WHO I ASK YOU?????

[jojobruin.livejournal.com]

You are actually really famous when it comes to SPN fandom. I believe you are the first author to use wincest as a warning in your fanfic. It's even documented on the SPN wiki! Check it out: http://www.supernaturalwiki.com/index.php?title=Wincest

I love the show too. Happy SPN waiting until 9/24!

And good luck with moving.

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

If someone asked me to say things about this show - this post is everything I would want to say. Thank you for this. And now I've gotten all misty-eyed and bullshit. Stop Doing That! ;)

[laulan.livejournal.com]

You just singlehandedly restored my hopes for season 6. *flaps hands* I DON'T KNOW, I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS RIGHT NOW, OMG. ♥ SAM AND DEAAAAN ♥

[bientot.livejournal.com]

I was one of the ones who resisted - it was creepy, and I don't do creepy! - and continued to resist in spite of people telling me it wasn't that creepy, and the fanfic made it all worthwhile - and finally when I lost my job and had lots of time I finally got on board, with the help of TNT, and have been reading voraciously ever since. I DIDN'T KNOW. It wasn't about creepy, it was about doomed love and teh pretty! I'm so glad I finally came around and I'm really looking forward to S6!!!!

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

OMG RIGHT?!?! It is like rainbows and frosting and cupcakes and unicorns and PRETTY PRETTY ANGSTY BOYS WHO ANGST GAILY AT EACH OTHER!! Speaking of unicorns... *significant look*

I am glad you changed your callous youthful ways and saw the light. And that I found my way back to the flock. And stuff. ♥ you!!

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

HOORAY!!! PET!! You are one of my favorite people Show brought to me!! ♥!!

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

It makes me happy too!! My fandom love is strong!

Awwww, I'm glad you eventually started again!! Amusingly, I could never watch X-Files because it was too creepy and also my brother looked like DD in high school, which ruined a whole lot of the appeal for me. I came into SPN as a bitter, bitter SV fan and SPN was like a soothing balm to my fangirl soul.

Hee! RIGHT? I totally owe my being lured back into fandom to Misha. Life is funny indeed!

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

YES THIS SO MUCH! WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT YOU???? If show has taught us nothing, Joy, it has taught us that gay love saves the day.

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

Ahahhahaha, YAY! I was for serious 100% PISSED about Jensen's character being named Dean at first. I was like, "WTF, they should have changed it!! Jared was Dean for seven years WHAT THE HELL, NEW SHOW?" lolololol, self!

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

IDKIDKIDK, I CAN'T SEEM TO HELP MYSELF!!! Seriously, who DOES that? ONLY CRAZY PEOPLE, THAT'S WHO!!!

Wait, what are the downsides to crazy again?

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

Ahhahahaaa!! IDK that I'd go so far as famous, but I can't even pretend on that one, can I? Oh well, PERVERT FROM THE START, what can I say?

ONLY A WEEK AND A HALF LEFT!! \o/

Thank you!! I really hate packing! *g*

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

Heee! Thank you!! I'm sorry? I get a little excited...

NOT TOO MUCH LONGER TIL NEW SEASON HOORAY!!!

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

Then my work here is done!!! \o/ I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS TOO!! I CAN'T WAIT FOR THEM TO BE BACK OMG!!! Show of my heart is of my heart! ♥!!!

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

IAWTC x ELEVENTY-BILLION!!! This is the most insanely talented fandom, I can't even- I AM FULL OF LOVE AND ~FEELINGS~!!!

[errant-jane.livejournal.com]

Ahahaha, I'M GLAD YOU CRACKED!! Really, I was off-put by the creepy for about two seconds and then I was all, "But OMG they're so PRETTY!!!" and every time it gets too creepy I just focus on how pretty they are.

There's only one episode that freaked me out so bad that I will NEVER EVER watch it again. And I'm a pretty big chicken.

[jojobruin.livejournal.com]

can you believe it? SPN S6 is just around the corner!!

How's your moving going? Is this for a new job? I hope you like your new place.